Every day people perform herculean tasks, everyday they invest and put effort into life and with just as much vigour people end their lives. With conviction, resolute and without thinking, they commit to their decisions. They decide to live or they decide to die.
Why can I not make the same commitment? Am I a coward, unable or too scared to decide? I flounder pathetically and painfully between life and death. I never desire either without longing desperately for another. I am stuck in limbo I am a fish out of water, jerking and drowning. But I can't seem to drown even though I can't breath. And, try as I might, I can't get back to the water.